Again a pathetic one from my heart

Aaj bhi woh pal yaad aate hain,
Dil ko yun rula jaate hain.
Unki yaad mein neend udd jaati hai
Mujhko woh kyun itna satati hai.

humne unko kitna yaad kiya woh unko pata nahi,
unse toh sirf pyaar kiya koi khata nahi.
aaj woh din soch kar dil ro deta hai,
Pata nahi aapa kyun kho deta hai.

Unko kabhi bhul na paye yeh bhi kya khata hai,
Humne unko chahkar ki koi khata hai.
Jaa jeele apni zindagi kya bol diya humne unse,
Apne aapse chup rehne ko bol diya kabse.

Ab tum shaanti se apni jeewan jee sakti ho,
uss pyaar ke ghoont ko firse pee sakti ho.
Mera kya hoga mujhko toh yeh pata nahi,
tumse sirf pyaar kiya tha koi khata nahi.

pathetic part2

YEh dil yeh jaan sabko mai kho chuka,
iss dil mein kayi saalon se ro chuka hun.
saala peeta hun ab mai bhi unko bhulane ko,
Jeeta hun kya sunane ko.
Mera yeh haal hi hona tha mujhe yeh pata na tha,
Iss dil ko khyal na tha .
Pata nahi mai kisi ko kyun itna chahta hun,
unke bina fir bhi mai ji na pata hun.
Mujhe pata hai unko meri koi kadar nahi hai,

Cribber

I think I love to crib,I don't know Why i do so.
Why I need my life to be perfect ,I need to live with the flow.
Time has come,I need to change.
It seems unlikely,but I am feeling strange.

I know you have read my mind and its all over.
I need to be to the point and not hover.
Soon things will change and I will be gone for good.
I know you don't trust me but I have stood by you till the time I could.

I need someone to love me ,I need someone at my side.
It feels like I am loner and my soul has just died.
I could be rude to you or hurt you by pulling your cheek.
I know I am mad and acting like a freak.

Soon I will be gone I know wouldn't have mattered,
I think I am alive but my dreams have been shattered .

Khwab
Dekhne ki jab 
Aadat ho jati hai
Haqiqat berang Nazar
Aati hai
Koi jeene ka Intezar karta
Hai
Aur
Kisiki
Zindgi intezar
Me
Beet jati he..

BEING IN TWENTIES - SOMETHING

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...

We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."  

Note : I got  the same from a very  special friend Saurabh Singh.

New Years Resolution

Pyar kiya tha kisi ko hum nibha na paye,
Dil diya tha kisi ko jata na paye.

Ankhein band kari toh unko samne paate the ,
Sote jagte unhi ke gun gaate the.

Woh toh humko bhul ke jeewan bita rahi hai,
Kya bhagwan iss dil ka bhi transfer chahte hain.

Ab mai bhi marke jeena nahi chahta hun,
Aage badke khul ke jeena chahta hun.

Kaash iss pyar ne mujhe iss kadar mujhe na sataya hota,
Khul ke jeene se mujhe isne na daraya hota.

Ab iss pyaar se mai nahi darna chahta hun,
Mai bhi khulke aish karna chahta hun

Iss naye saal se meri nay shuruwat hogi,
Sirf unke yaadien ab na mere saath hogi.

Ab firse aish karenge khulke jeeyenge ,
Fir se hum marne se na darenge.

Kyunki dar ke aage hi jeet hai,
Aur duniya mein haar ke jeene waalon ki hi preet hai.